today is the last day of 2012. tomorrow we'll be in 2013. the next day after tomorrow, my final exam will be started. i have 3 papers more to sit in order to complete my degree level. usually, the first week of the examination is the languages exam. i took 2 languages subjects this semester, i.e, english in media and french language level 2. EIM is a generic course while french 2 is an elective course. the exam for those courses will be held on 2nd n 3rd jan respectively. and then i have 1 more paper to sit, which is biochemistry. it is a core subject. it is an obligatory course for year 1 students, i had taken it and got bad grade. therefore, i have to repeat the paper in order to get my bachelor. it is optional whether to repeat papers, but they will not give you your degree. eh, wait, i forgot what's that saying if dont do this, they will not include "in honour" to your bachelor. okeh moving on.

let's talk about 2012; how's your life so far? have anything accomplished or achieved? mine, none. but i can say 2012 is a good year for me. it was a plain year but it's alright. i will be 23 soon. other friends were far too advanced than me, already. some of them are married and have kids, some already have a permanent job, some of them found the love of their life, some finally found their interests, some still studying and soon will have a bright future ahead. i have found/got nothing of those. none.  even i have been living with this body and this soul but i am still unable to understand myself, still searching and still confused. sometimes, i hope some organisation or whatever they are, abduct me, bring me far away and punish me to master some particular skills or knowledge and released me to the real world and become a successful person. i know, it is bullshit and impossible. those skills i'd like to learn are like sewing and its derivatives, cook and bake and its derivatives, or mastering CSS, etcetera.

a night ago, i went out with a friend. he was my high school senior and he is also befriended to my brothers (my bros's friends are my friends). all we talk about , other than teasing each other, is about how those people around us were already settled down. and how pathetic our lives are. however, what we can conclude from our conversation is that "if something meant to be in our lives, it will be".

so let's talk about 2013. what are your resolutions? what are your aims, your wishes? i have the same aim over the years, to get me skinned! but that never happened. even i said im serious but the seriousness just be around for like 1 month or 2. this beloved, 20 years old fat of mine is so loyal to me. i think, a good way to achieved a desirable weight is by telling people your plan, ask for help and support. besides, if people knows your plan, it'll give you an incentive to get skinny.

so here is my list, what to be done, in 2013.

1. be a 50+ kilos baby
2. get good grades for this final semester
3. have a job
4. improve my social interaction with other people
5. save money for the trips to johor-penang-kl
6. learn to sew (considering giatmara)
7. will not get married, save it for other year.

semalam sy dan mel bercerita panjang mengingat balik cerita waktu budak2 dulu, yg mana pada masa itu adalah zaman friendster. sy yakin semua ada friendster. itulah laman sosial yg terpemes di kalangan remaja dulu2. selain daripada myspace lah.