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i cant sleep n now it's morning already im sleepy but i cant sleep

today is the last day of 2012. tomorrow we'll be in 2013. the next day after tomorrow, my final exam will be started. i have 3 papers more to sit in order to complete my degree level. usually, the first week of the examination is the languages exam. i took 2 languages subjects this semester, i.e, english in media and french language level 2. EIM is a generic course while french 2 is an elective course. the exam for those courses will be held on 2nd n 3rd jan respectively. and then i have 1 more paper to sit, which is biochemistry. it is a core subject. it is an obligatory course for year 1 students, i had taken it and got bad grade. therefore, i have to repeat the paper in order to get my bachelor. it is optional whether to repeat papers, but they will not give you your degree. eh, wait, i forgot what's that saying if dont do this, they will not include "in honour" to your bachelor. okeh moving on.

let's talk about 2012; how's your life so far? have anything accomplished or achieved? mine, none. but i can say 2012 is a good year for me. it was a plain year but it's alright. i will be 23 soon. other friends were far too advanced than me, already. some of them are married and have kids, some already have a permanent job, some of them found the love of their life, some finally found their interests, some still studying and soon will have a bright future ahead. i have found/got nothing of those. none.  even i have been living with this body and this soul but i am still unable to understand myself, still searching and still confused. sometimes, i hope some organisation or whatever they are, abduct me, bring me far away and punish me to master some particular skills or knowledge and released me to the real world and become a successful person. i know, it is bullshit and impossible. those skills i'd like to learn are like sewing and its derivatives, cook and bake and its derivatives, or mastering CSS, etcetera.

a night ago, i went out with a friend. he was my high school senior and he is also befriended to my brothers (my bros's friends are my friends). all we talk about , other than teasing each other, is about how those people around us were already settled down. and how pathetic our lives are. however, what we can conclude from our conversation is that "if something meant to be in our lives, it will be".

so let's talk about 2013. what are your resolutions? what are your aims, your wishes? i have the same aim over the years, to get me skinned! but that never happened. even i said im serious but the seriousness just be around for like 1 month or 2. this beloved, 20 years old fat of mine is so loyal to me. i think, a good way to achieved a desirable weight is by telling people your plan, ask for help and support. besides, if people knows your plan, it'll give you an incentive to get skinny.

so here is my list, what to be done, in 2013.

1. be a 50+ kilos baby
2. get good grades for this final semester
3. have a job
4. improve my social interaction with other people
5. save money for the trips to johor-penang-kl
6. learn to sew (considering giatmara)
7. will not get married, save it for other year.

semalam sy dan mel bercerita panjang mengingat balik cerita waktu budak2 dulu, yg mana pada masa itu adalah zaman friendster. sy yakin semua ada friendster. itulah laman sosial yg terpemes di kalangan remaja dulu2. selain daripada myspace lah. 

puteri santubong puteri sejinjang

penjaga gunung negeri sarawak

manis sik ada dapat dilawan

anak dak dewa turun kayangan

* sambil menyanyi lagu puteri santubong*

we hiked mount santubong one day before i left sarawak for sabah. memang dahsyat la naik gunung santubong itu bagi kami perempuan2 yang tidak fit. kenapa dahsyat sedangkan tinggi dia half of kinabalu pun. sebab trek santubong tidak sebersih kinabalu. i mean, kinabalu kan selalu ada perkerja naik turun, kalau ada apa2 kekurangan laju ja orang baiki. gunung santubong ini jarang orang naik, i guess.

start naik gunung jam 10 am lebih sikit. dari kaki bukit ada beberapa point. dari point A ke point F. start point F, start bukit2 sudah. ke puncak gunung santubong ada 15 point semuanya. start naik jam 10, baru sampai F10 saya sudah pancit. paling menghampakan, ingat kau naik ke F10 ada harapan maw sampai puncak tapi tidak. signboard cakap "2 hours 30 minutes more to the top". waktu sampai F8 tu jam sudah 1.30pm sedangkan orang jaga gunung tu suruh turun before jam 2pm. maka kami yang sudahlah penat, air glukose pun sudah habis, air minum pun sudah tinggal sikit, memang tak mampu lah naik.

tapi apa2pun naik gunung santubong best. on the way naik gunung, kami nampak sejenis primate tapi tidak di ketahui apa, samada proboscis monkey or macaque. tapi yang pasti bukan orangutan. memang takut sebab takut dorang serang kami. waktu turun tu, boleh2 kawan saya nampak ada anjing hitam. saya tidak rasa apa yang dia nampak itu, anjing hitam. mustahil ada anjing di gunung.

waktu trekking di serait trail di bako dulu, abang huzal staff zoology pernah cakap yang kalau naik santubong  lagi dahsyat dari trail serait tu. ada bukit yang maw naik tali 90 darjah.. ingat dia exaggerate saja. betul rupanya. tapi, kalau naik santubong ini aktiviti subjek park and wildlife management, saya akan komen dengan Dr A, "point trek gunung ni insignificant dan keselamatan tidak di upgrade"

balik sabah, flight awal pagi..sampai rumah, abang saya ejek "kenapa kau bejalan ketam?"
------ko tidak taw macamana sakit badan saya! tidur pun tidak mampu pusing kanan kiri.

viewpoint from f7-f8. nampak dah sungai sarawak

what a loss, we need 2 hours 30 mins to reach the top

90 deg rope trail