im not in a good shape right now. current weight is 52kg but i dont feel good because not doing workout for days. i dont feel fit, and not feeling fit is baaad. i currently am enjoying my semester break. really? am i really enjoying? definitely absolutely no. why? because one day i received an email from my lecturer telling that on 15th (yest) there would have a meeting regarding to the field course and on 16th (today) should be the proposal presentation. whattt? hey we dont expect any meeting/class on semester break, come on! lucky for me i was not the only person who is absent haha. next week i will be at kuching and will start to get busy to get ready for the field course at simunjan, with the danish student counterparts. there are 6 of them so we will be a group of 10. i hope they are nice.

we had 3 days stayed out field trip last weekend. we stayed at unimas training center hostel located at Bau. we were assigned into groups. the first day of the trip which was on friday, we had classes the whole day, from 9am-9pm, given 1 hour for lunch and 1 hour for dinner. the second day, we left the hostel to somewhere near serikin particularly prof's kebun, to do the practicals on soil sampling, water quality and forest inventory. these three activities we have to mastered it so that we will be able to do it our own later on for our next 10 days field trip on march. my groups managed to finished the practicals early, so we were assigned to do the veggies chopping and preparing for the BBQ night. i made "lada", or people in here called it sambal cili. i never tested it because i doubt prof's barang dapur to be used for non-halal foods, i even dont eat from the bbq except i ate banyak rambutan that night. a senior of cohort 11 came that night, he is also prof's good friend, he said "i dont know who make this chilli but she really knows how to make it" and the class pointed their finger at me. i considered it as a compliment *kembang hidung* :)) the last day we went to kampung gumbang, i dont know how far the kampung from our hostel but i assumed it is very far from town, it is located next to kalimantan only separated by mountains. the uncle from the kampung brought us to the boundary sign within the forested mountain. you know i love forest, i love trekking. i followed the uncle from behind and the next thing we know we were always a bit far ahead from the rest of the class. my classmates, even the uncle keep asking me why am i so fast, how did i managed to walk in the forest with mud, slippery rocks without falling and all. and them whom behind me and the uncle always keep telling us to slow down. the uncle said to me,teasing, "pandai kamu jalan dalam hutan, boleh kawin orang gumbang ni". and the uncle also told mr kelvin our lecturer, "dia ni jalan dalam hutan sangat kreatif, memang orang gunung" -.- hahahha

this saturday is our last paper for this semester and then we will have semester break. i cannot believe first semester is coming to an end already :') and even we have 3 weeks break, i thought i can enjoy the break without thinking or doing anything academically, when actually i must be prepared for the next field trip which will be held a week after the sem 2 begin. and tidak boleh main2 because this field trip, actually it is called field course, we will going for it with the danish students, if you dont want to look stupid in front of the danish, better be ready with knowledge and information, not only with the tools and equipment.

Salam Maulidur Rasul. hi.

as i grew older i have learned many things. the problem is i do not know how to use the information (like statistics that we've learned in class previously). life is never fair. i never felt being treated fairly even it is just a small matter. in order to be treated fairly, you need to earn it. and some people need to do absolutely nothing but yet the world, life is fair to them. you see what i am trying to imply?

but, dont lose faith yet. Allah Maha Adil. He is the reason im still alive. He knew what i really want and what i dont know what i really want. dalam berdoa, meminta dariNya banyak2, saya jadi malu ketika berdoa sebab kebaikan yg telah saya lakukan terlalu sedikit untuk meminta lebih daripadaNya, namun Dia lebih suka akan hambaNya yg sentiasa berdoa T_T

hi happy 2014

actually it was a tradition to post a new year entry filled with last year summaries and new year resolutions but i was too lazy to update my blog.

so, to summarized 2013, it was a good year. i had achieved some of my resolutions i made earlier in 2013 i.e be a 50 kilos baby, i once had a job for 5 months, i graduated with not so good pointer but at least qualified me to further my study (now) but in different field from my degree background. so far those are what i achieved. i never learn how to make doughnuts, i still had no chance to climb mt kinabalu, im still socially awkward in public, i dont used my 5 months salaries for braces, annnnnd still have no boyfriend.

so whats my new year resolutions? idk. havent thought of any to add on the list. just to complete my obsession to be fitter. what about love? i am 24yo this year and always single, and i dont want to say something like 'i am ready for love'. nooo thats bullshit in my dictionary. my real focus this year is to respect my body more and focus on my study and to grad next year, on february with a good grades. god willing.

im in the third phase on 90days challenge currently, today is day 4. will talk about this challenge later on. kalau rajin lah.

supposedly i should be revising for this saturday final exam for jsm6022 but i am on blog sphere instead.

and supposedly i wanna update about my belated story of the first 90 days challenge now in this entry but suddenly my scumbag brain refuse to think much for this casual essay.

i am changing, i am glad some of my friends seek advises from me. i would gladly to share some and if only we are living near now, i would like to go running with them and do some workout together. because it is important to be surrounded with positive ready to be healthy people. i have my friends here my beloved uribe gang, but they are not ready yet to take a step and i cant make them to, because if i insist i will be the most annoying gal. i do hoping they will come to me and say 'i am ready', and please be sooner!

well in case if any of you readers found my blog and want to loss some weight, take my advice because this is how i started/how i did it.

to take any supplement is an option, you still can lose weight without it, in case if you're broke like me.
find loads of motivations, set a short-term target, like 90 days challenge.
willing and so ready to seriously change.
get yourself note books, one for food log and one for jotting your journey and to write motivations and tips you read somewhere.
you got to know your initial weight and measure you waistline, love-handle, thighs, arms. (trust me it is important). and do the measurement every 15 days.
pick one or two of your family member or close friend and tell them your current weight and measures. so you will feel ashamed and the intention to lose weight is even fiery. because one is now knowing your weight and you sure you dont wanna stay on that weight ever again, or else you will feel ashamed and disgrace.
challenge yourself and tell the selected person that you will win the challenge.
you must have that bitchy little voice inside of you that keep on yelling you to keep strong. just in time you are about to give in, that bitchy voice will yell, insult and intimidate you so that you will keep on going.
watch your portion.
eat healthy food, those real foods. real foods such as vegetables and fruits, chicken and fish. eg. hotdog is no real food.
do research about foods you always take and what should you replace it with.
limit sugar intake.
do exercise at least 30 minutes a day and 3 times a week. best exercise is zumba, its fun to do and burn 500-900 calories an hour. go for a jog, at least 15-20 minutes. seriously stress-relief exercise. love the burns.
drink a lot of water. my first 90 days, i must drink 4L or more a day.
sleep well.

this is how i did it. i know these tips you can read it any where because it is true. i approved all the tips are working. you just have to find the you that have the will to make it happen. and put the manja you aside.

12/4/13
initial weight = 65 kilos
initial waistline = 35 inches
initial love-handle line = 39 inches
thighs and arms = 24 inches , 13.5 inches

14/11/13
current weight = last time i weighed, 53 kilos
waistline = 28 inches
love-handle line = 32 inches
thighs and arms = 20.675 inches , 10.875 inches

the process is slow but expecting dramatic changes or results will kill you and your dream. low your expectation. strive for progress.

#forselfreminder

yesterday is my second 90 days challenge. my target was to weigh 49kg but i guess i failed this one but i havent weigh myself yet since i was too ashamed to ask my housemate's digital scale. i have my own scale but i dont trust mine, because it is not a digital scale. besides i havent had my dump yet. but i can feel it i didnt drop much of weight for the second 90 days challenge. maybe im still around 52-55kg. tomorrow i'll check.

hi. i am officially a unimas alumni :)

i am so grateful my life is getting better especially this year. my last post i stated i have a feeling this year is gonna be a good year, indeed it is. we have few weeks more til new year and i'll list up what's new and good had happened to me this year. alhamdulillah.